Need to vent!!!!!!! I feel so angry and frustrated with my husband's behaviour. I know I'm supposed to be loving and supportive to help him get better, but tonight I don't feel loving towards him at all. I feel angry and resentful. I'm feeling sorry for myself for being stuck with someone like him. I wish he would get better or get out of my life! It sounds awful, but the honest truth is that him dying or taking his own life at this point would be a big relief for me. I am just so tired and exhausted from doing everything at home (housework, childcare etc) as well as work 3-4 days per week while he does very little. The expectation of me is that I contribute significantly to our household income and the fact that I haven't much in the last 4 years ( our daughter is 4) makes him resentful of me! Unbelievable! This shows that he has absolutely no understanding of how his behaviour affects me. How can he expect me to do EVERYTHING and contribute financially as well. Here is an example... I'm 5.5 months pregnant with our second child, have been working all day, collect daughter from dsy care on way home, get dinner soon as I walk in, feed child, eat myself, bath child, clean her teeth, read stories to her and put her to sleep, wash dishes then sit down to check email and do a little preparation for the next working day. My husband's activities while all this is going on is to get home from work early, crash on the couch, go outside for a cigarette, crash on the couch again complaining bitterly about the fact that it is unfair that he has to go on a family holiday with us in a couple of days because he is so tired that he just wants to stay home. All a really typical scenario in our house hold. He is on 3 different medications which seem to control his depression quite well (finally) but the anxiety seems to still be a big problem... The latest thing that is just unbearable is that he is so tired all the time that he wants to sleep in the couch every evening and often all weekend and has no energy to do anything. Even before this, it has been a constant battle to get him to participate in our lives and be sn active, present member of the family. I feel like a single parent with a preschooler and a very demanding special needs child. It is very draining and extremely frustrating to live with someone like him. I have planned our separation and divorce countless times! I don't really want this, but I can't stand his behaviour and the constant waiting for him to get better. I'm starting to feel like he never will, and I just want to be free if his odious prescence and get on with my life!!!!!