This is a paper I have written based on my own experience. For the greater part of 20 years, I suffered from drug and alcohol addiction. I, like many others, also suffered the anxieties, the depression, the ups and downs and other mood swings that come along with this lifestyle. The following is not researched from any source; rather it is based purely on my own thoughts and experiences. It is purely a collaboration of my own feelings and personal understanding of this topic.